another chit.chat

this time-posting started with my deep feeling about my friend.

firstly, i wanna make it clear it's not about love bc friend im telling right here is a girl. she is nice and friendly and i find my self comfortable be around her. it's not easy to get my self feeling this way bc im not an easy-people. however, she really bring the good and bad side of me. she makes me show up everything on me both nice and bad. she really make me comfort and i really mean it.

well, it's all started with a not-really-important even and situation. she is actually my junior and she respects me. sometimes she treats me like her bestfriend, sometimes as a teacher and sometimes as a sister. you know that how close we ar, huh? really close, even i can control my mouth say something unecessary and untoughfull. i say anything i want without care weather she will hurted or not. so, what is the big deal now? why did she make me mad?

well, the situation is not always right and comfortable, thats why. she is my junior and she talked to much as she is really proud of it. FYI, im is a student in the college on the last year. so anything related to the graduate and thesis-things will make me sick and offense me. idk why this happen, i tried to hold this as hard as i want to, but it never enough. this always this feeling i dont want her to say anyshit things about this and just wanna make her shut her mouth off. but idk, if i say that, i know it will never come out right. so i decide to shut and never shy shit.

so here i am. just say it outloud to an electronic mail and post this out  pretending someone is going to read it. haha. well, i just loveeeee pretending!